Dreading New Year

In haste - rock n roll Friday shopping delivery about to come......

Ditto on all of the above...fab pictures, get well soon wishes, great weight loss, rubber dinghies and life buoys ahoy to you all.

Sorry for the rubbish post, been crazy at work..

Love, Hope, peace and strength to you all

xxx

Aww Kate. Sending you a big hug. Xx I think people just don't get it. And some people are do consumed in their lives. But the Mac Team are thinking of you and behind you all the way. Xxxx hope you have a peaceful restful evening. Xx

Thanks guys, been to the gym again today. It helps just to get out and have a bit of me time. Xx 

Rock and Roll Friday here too. (Showered and in my PJ's already. Only off today this week, so been washing, cleaning, food shopping, and gym. Oh my life is so glam.

Wishing you all a calm weekend. And best wishes whatever your doing xx

It’s another rock and roll Friday for me too. As you said Sunshine, some people just don’t get what we are going through and are so consumed with their lives, without giving a little thought to others. The Mac Team understand and as Sunshine said Kate, we are with you all the way.

Wishing you all a peaceful weekend xx

Hi all

Hope you’ve all had a positive weekend and managed to enjoy the glimpses of sunshine ️ 

Wishing you strength for the week ahead xxx

Hello ladies,

Firstly, thank you so much for all your kind messages of support, dingys, rainbows, dolphins and kind, kind words. You really all are saints. 

Managed to get through Thursday and Friday. Friday was tough - anxiety, slight panic on trains and generally feeling woozy. I was meant to go to a new team dinner with my new job but I just couldn't manage it. I know what my limits are these days and I'd managed to get up, into work and out but nothing more. Friday night was a similar affair to you Sunshine. Bath, pjs, a bit of tv and bed. In fact, I think I fell asleep by 9! The rest of the weekend has been ok. Waves of missing mum but also spending time in the garden, looking at all the plants and flowers that my mum had grown for me back in Norfolk. There are a few that she bought just before she was diagnosed that she wanted to plant but eventually couldn't. I've planted them and am watching them flourish - such a shame I can't tell her. 

Went for a 7k jog on Saturday evening. Really beautiful skies and so lovely to be surrounded by a trees, birds and flowers in a park near me. Still not managed to run all 7k, still having to do a few walks in that but seeing a little progress two weeks in. 

How are you all doing? Hope your weekends were peaceful and wishing you lots of strength for the week ahead. 

Thank you again for all your support - I know you guys get it (sadly) and so I'm very grateful for your support and hope I can return the favor / rubber rings when you may need them.

Sending lots of love to you all.

Kate xxxxx

It's bright, but still nippy. My heating broke so currently sitting under a throw. In my winter PJ's

You too Spu, hope you have a calm week. Xx

Aww Kate, sorry you have had a tough week. Xx hope for calmer times this coming week xx 

Early nights are the best. Xx 

Aww sounds lovely with the garden. My mum loved her garden, too. XXX  We are waiting for the frost to go and am going to do some planting. Xx 

Your jog sounds perfect .xx lovely to get out and about. Well done you.

I'm enjoying the gym. Even if a 85 absolutely slayed me on the cross trainer. It was soooo funny, I was huffing and puffing.  could hardly talk and he start chatting, he said "when I turned 85, I knew I had to do something" I was so shocked I nearly fell off.  Funny really a you had to be there moment and who was the first person I wanted to tell. Mum of course . Missing her so much. But trying my hardest to do as she want and have lots of fun. The other night it was just me and my big sister in the gym. We just chatted and laughed and laughed. I thought my mum would have loved that. 

Totally get the getting through the day and work. But knowing when your limits. For someone who was a socially butterfly and always in the thick of it .I now live my own company or infact need the space at the end of the day to reconvine  Xx

I have a friends wedding, this week. Lots of us from work going. I just get so exhausted these days, battling through the day. Hope I make it 9pm xx 

Wishing you all a settled week. Xx 

Sorry to hear a few had a very tough weekend. I went on Saturday to walk over a bridge that's closed in the week for work but the walkway is open weekends, blimey thought I was going to get blown off and the wind was bitterly cold, don't really know where it came from. But it proved how in the town it was sheltered. I wanted to take some pictures of the new bridge and back ground but it was very difficult, first the very high railings I was very glad of for sure, but it was difficult to focus camera though the gap not to mention my fingers got so cold that I was afraid of dropping my phone. I have a great camera on my phone, not bad really. I think winter has returned and to think its Easter next weekend. After some really nice warm sunshine its returned to grey, cold skies. But maybe a few rainbows this week to see as we are expecting rain over the next few days. 

I am glad to hear the plants are doing well that have been planted for your Mum Kate. Oh and sunshine lol isn't it really funny when an 85 year old guy makes us look terrible in the gym. Its always good to have a giggle in the gym to keep us motivated.

Have a great week everyone

Hi all.  The last few days those big waves have been hitting me. I definitely need the rubber rings/dingy please. I had to get something from mum’s room, I very rarely go in, as I just find it too upsetting, looking at mum’s clothes etc. The drawer that I had to look in, had mum’s hairbrush in, I’m just thankful the hairbrush still has mum’s hair on. I always brushed mum’s hair every morning then cleaned it, but, in the last week of mum’s life, I did not bother, as you can imagine there were lots of other things going on. I’m just pleased I have mum’s hair, even though looking at the hairbrush is heartbreaking.

My mum loved flowers, trees too Kate. The pear tree in the back garden is in white blossom at the moment, it looks lovely and mum always liked to see the pear tree in spring. I always liked nature, but, I find myself taking more notice of trees, flowers, the birds and find it so peaceful and beautiful.

As Kate said, I’m so grateful for all of your support too.

Love Julia xxx

Hey GBear good to hear from you, hope you are feeling a little better? Your pictures are lovely and make us smile, thank you.

Gosh I know! Quite chilly! But meant to be warming up for the weekend ️️

Hope you manage to get the photos then maybe.

Have a good week/Easter xx