Dreading New Year

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Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive. 

Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday.   Xxx

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    Morning all, terrible weather here in Sunderland. I have taken my sisters advice and decided to take a step back from this site. Just wanted to say, a BIG thank you, for all your kind words and messages of support - it really is appreciated.. If you ever want to get in touch sometime via email,your all more than welcome too, will enclose my email at the end of this message, 

    Look after yourselves - GBear, Kate, Lou, Sunshine and SPu. As my mum used to say, take care and god bless xxx

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    Understood Sunny43 - thank you for all your kind messages of support too. You will be missed. 

    Thanks all to your messages of feeling better. Getting there. Xx

    ps. My mum used to say something similar x

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    Morning all,

    You must do what is right for you Julia and if you feel you need to take a step back from here than it is what you need to do. 

    It was nice to 'meet' you just wish greatly it was under completely different circumstances and not this one we all find ourselves in. Thanks back to you also for your lovely, kind, thoughtful messages they have meant a lot to me and I'm pretty sure they have to others.

    I wish you and your family the very best. Sending you a big hug x

    Take Care and God Bless

    X x x x Love Louise x x x

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    Hey Slight smile. Completely understand, you must do what is right for you. Sometimes I take mini breaks from posting but I’m still here lurking in the background keeping an eye out for everyone Slight smile

    We will miss you but remember we are all always here for you and you will be in our thoughts always. You’re one of the clan!

    Take care, God bless (my Mum too - plus well it’s time to love you and leave you when she was off from visiting someone).

    Love and hugs to the rest of you too. About to venture outside......

    xxx

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    Hold onto your hats Spu. It’s a windy old day here in SE London. 

    I seem to be riding a wave today (surfing a wave) flu and missing you mum = bad combo. 

    Spu, Lou, Sunshine - still will be here to listen and support, should you need it. 

    Sending lots of love to Sunny43 and GBear xx

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    Yep...it’s...well blowy Dash in Kent - not far from you Slight smile Slight smile

    Yes things always seem even worse when you’re already low and then you get a cold/flu on top. Surfing the wave beside you - we won’t let you get dragged under. Not on my watch.

    Stay strong all.

    xx

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    Look after your self Sunny43, thank you for all your kind words and support. All the best for the future. Xx 

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    Hello all - saw your comments via my email notifications and just wanted to say another big thank you for the lovely comments. Will be thinking of you. I hope you recover from the flu soon Kate and good luck with the upcoming new job. I ended my message yesterday, with what mum said a lot and will end this message with a favourite saying of mum’s, a lot of people had not heard it before, but, it always made them smile - cast your bread amongst the waters and it will come back as teacake

    Love and best wishes to you all xx

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    Hello loves,

    Just checking in to say hi and see how you’re all doing? 

    Finally heading back to work tomorrow after a week off with flu. Been a couple of dark days and really rocky waves but looking forward to some sort of routine again.

    Thinking of you all xx

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    Hi Kate and all,

    Thanks for checking in. Hope you are feeling better. Been an odd day today spoke to someone from Cruse just a general chat not counselling and feel very drained and tired so hoping for a good night's sleep tonight.

    Good Luck with work tomorrow.  Been thinking of you all. Hope the next waves will be 'calmer' for you. 

    Take care, sending my love to you all x x x