Dreading New Year

Freda is here too but we have a little friend to watch over us all. 

Hope the storm doesn't cause too much damage round you.

That is beautiful Gbear! Xx

GBear - wonderful picture xx

SPu - spring has disappeared from here too, no gales, but pouring with rain. Wishing you strength for the week ahead too xx

K8EH -  thanks Kate, like I said a lovely, kind invite. Storm Freya is not here in the North East, by the weather forecast, the North East seems to be avoiding the storm. Take care where you are. Hopefully, the storm will pass over soon and not cause serious damage.

My weekend has been ok - it was my sisters birthday yesterday. I tried to keep my emotions in check, but as soon as my sister and niece walked through the front door, I started to cry, I kept thinking this time last year, mum and me were singing happy birthday  to my sister. A friend of mine knew I was feeling low and rang me, she knows exactly how I was feeling as her mum had passed from cancer, just talking about mum helps me, I always mention mum everyday. I’m sure your friends don’t mind you talking about your mum Kate, true friends are with you, through the good and bad times in our life’s.

Im glad that Dexter is ok and good luck for next week. I will be thinking of you. Before I go, can I put a request in for the rubber ring/life jacket and arm bands - it will help with the waves of emotion. Take care xx

Evening all. Storm Freya is here in the South East too. Getting windy here Stanley loved the wind earlier. Was running around like a loon. Getting worse now thou.(Hope my fence stays up, it's a bit loose and blowing a gale out there) xx 

Yipeeee Finished work for a week.  Not much planned tommorow. Im exhausted so i think a lay in, house work and PJ day. So nice, not setting the 5.30am alarm. Bet I still wake up early. Then my dad, is going to make my niece and I pancakes on Tuesday. (We are very excited,)Xx I'm going to spend a couple of days with my aunt later in the week (My mum's big sister) need a bit of chill. 

I talk about my mum lots, it so natural for me to. I can't help my self. "Oh mum loved that" "Mum had that" But must admit, i sometimes feel it makes people uncomfortable. But i don't apoligse.  I just state fact "oh I love to talk about my mum" I will always talk about my mum. Xx 

Lou12 I think whatever gives you comfort and it's right for you. If it makes you happy Xx my friend talked to me about it. Its really not for me.  Xx but I said the same to her. If it gives you comfort. Then i respect that. Xx 

Good Luck on the work front Kate and meeting the new boss. Hugs to Dexter.  

Love the Owl Gbear. So talented. 

I'm going to bed a little calmer tonight. These waves are certainly exhausting. Xx

Have a peaceful week all. Xx 

Hello Lou12

Firstly, very sorry for your loss.

Like you, Iam missing My Mum so, so much. For me, it has been three months - it is awful. We were so very close. 

I see you have been reading about the afterlife. It is something I have been wondering about. I know someone who describes herself as a Spiritualist. She firmly believes that loved ones are able to make contact. Also she has had several readings via mediums and says she has had contact through them that are genuine 

I would love to believe it is authentic but I am struggling to do so at the moment. Maybe I will try it sometime. What are your feelings after your reading so far ?

Hope you have a nice week off Sunshine. I will always talk about mum too, mum was my mum for 43 years, I’m not going to suddenly stop talking about mum. Enjoy your pancakes tomorrow, I used to make mum pancakes quite a lot - favourite toppings, ice cream and syrup. xx

Thanks. Just been on a very windy walk with Stanley. He love it #crazycockapoo, now all snuggly on the sofa.

Totally agree, that's how I feel. For 38 years She was a main part of my life and still is. I will always keep her memory alive. Xxx 

Mmmmmm love pancakes. Xxx 

Hi guys, thoughts or experiences would be appreciated. 

My fella come into night and a acquaintance we both knew years ago. Sadly died a few week back and their funeral is next week. My husband said he was thinking of adjusting his work. So he could go pay his respects and said "you coming" I literally felt like I was gone pass out. As soon as he said he said "no of course, sorry". I explained it's the thought of going back to where I said good bye to my mum. I can't go there. Just thinking about it gets me panicking. Plus like I said they were an acquaintance. So would do not know the family. I would be so embrassed, if I had a panic attack in front of the family. I sent my regards and of course they will me thinking of them all. But physically going is not an option. I know one day the reality I will have to. But not now. Xx