Dreading New Year

Hi we have a couple of pear trees and one of them is full of blossom not seen so much before. The weather again was just lovely indeed, so the blooms of spring look ever more beautiful. I love spring its a sign of new life beginning its kinda weird thing but I always look forward to spring to see everything start to spring into new life. My friend loved his garden and his cars, and was pretty ingenious with his creative ideas and it was always nice to see what he and his wife had come up with for the garden. This time of year you see all the new plants starting to bloom the daffodils now starting to go over but other bulbs come up ready to take over, its just beautiful.

And as promised here is my latest painting, one of my favorites.

Hi all

Sorry being the Queen of Useless again. I’ve been reading your posts but not getting a chance to reply. Work has been crazy and I’m managing to catch up with a couple of friends I haven’t seen for a while. I prefer it this way, less time to think.

Loving the creativity GBear the sock bunny in particular made me smile. And the paintings are lovely and great to see.

As usual I relate to all the posts. It’s weird isn’t it. We live in different parts of the country, we may have similar or different backgrounds but we are united in our love for our Mums and their love for us. So many similarities in their thoughts and sayings.

Wishing you all a blessed and Happy Easter  

Enjoy the sunshine  

xxxx

Hello all. Thank you for showing us the picture GBear - fantastic. Like I said, my mum loved spring, a time where the beauty of nature starts to grow/shine. We have a lilac tree near the driveway, that is just starting to bloom with lovely colours. I know what you mean SPu, we all come from different parts of the country, but, we are united with our love for our mum’s. I’m pleased I joined this site, I can write what I’m feeling and you all get it. The kindness and support of virtual friends on here means so much.

Wishing you all a peaceful Sunday xx

Hey Guys, Hope you had a nice day in the sunshine and some choccy thrown in. I've had a few treats today. Back on it tmrw.  WhyWnot i dayd everything in moderation. X X Then I walked Stanley, when it's cooled down +southeast has baked today). I don't know, whats wrong with him, his just sad  He keeps looking at the door, my dad's away (first time since my mum died).  I think his missing him. Think he thinks, has made him really unsettled   #dogshavefeelingstoo. We are having a big snuggly, before bed. Shhh don't tell my dad. might even let him sleep at the end of my bed. Xx 

I miss my  beautiful mum lots and lots, every day. But Family times. Really highlight it. Xx But I know she would be proud of me at work today and of course I'm looking after her boy (Stanley )

Wishing you all a week of gently waves 

xxxxxx

Hi all

Hope you’ve had a good Easter.

deffo agree - better to have things in moderation than not at all. The more I deny myself something the more I want it - even if I’m not that fussed normally  Sorry to hear about Stanley. I’m a firm believer that all animals have feelings - it’s arrogant of us humans to believe otherwise. My cats were definitely tuned into us/me - they knew when I was sad/needed them and they would comfort me. He is probably, as you say, just a little unsettled that your Dad isn’t there so soon after your Mum - but you are and he will appreciate that. Oodles of cuddles deffo in order! Maybe also the sudden heat? Just keep an eye on him maybe.

I had a sudden flurry of sorting out yesterday. The dining room still has Mum’s bed in it and, as it’s a through room, I kinda need to sort it out. My Mum would want someone to be using it - it’s practically brand new, hardly used. But it had lots of stuff on it that I’d just left there waiting for her to come home - clean sheets, pillows, hot water bottles, her little cushion. So now I just have a clear bed. Also sorted her slippers etc. into charity v rubbish.  Mixed feelings now but I had to do it. I know she’d want me to. 

Anyway, enough of me. Hope everyone is doing ok.

Have a strong and peaceful week xxx

Hey SPu, 

Yep defiently think he was pinning. He is fine now he has daddy home. Xx First month my mum was in hospital. He was exactly the same. Not eating, whimpering. Xx He defiently feels it. XXX 

Awww bless you .It's so hard. But like you said needs to be done. Most of mum's is done. There are the last few bits to sort .I must admit 9 months on. I keep putting of the last bits. Just don't want it to be so final. Xx but I have given lots away to people she would want to have. Crafts mainly. She was so creative .Every child in the family got a lovely craft boxX, full to the brim. She would love thisXx

Only two more days at work and then off for 11 days. Off to the south west coast. Can't wait. Xx 

Peaceful week to you all too

Aw glad Stanley is better . Have a fab, hopefully sunny ️ break xx

Hi everyone, hope your week is going ok so far. GBear, those owls are just beautiful! So talented. Hope you are doing ok

I've been having a few waves the last week or so, after quite a long period of calm. Yesterday, at the worst time (ducking to the loo between meetings at work) a few of the hardest memories from mum's illness come back clear and true. Tough, tough times we went through. Maybe I've been pushing them aside a bit lately as I've been feeling more positive in general. I never want to pretend those hard times didn't happen, but I do want to be able to remember mum for her whole, complete self, as I know she would hate for us to only remember her in her illness. 

I'm off work today for life admin - treated myself to the dentists and opticians in one day, so rock and roll! Even though I'm pushing 40 mum would still be proud to know that I got a glowing report from both - gold star from dentists and apparently I'm still hanging on to 20-20 vision :) Haha, so silly but I'd always have called her after just to let her know how I got on - she really cared, like all our mums did, even about the little things - because she cared about me. I called my sister instead and tried to persuade her to get an eye test and a dental check up herself, since she's left it about ten years and mum would nag her to get it sorted!

For the rest of the day I'm thinking about a bit of gardening, and might try and figure out how to make some fabric tiebacks for my curtains. Just like you've all been saying, those are things mum would be so great at, and she'd take pleasure from helping me with. I'm sad we can't do these little things together but as with you all, I'm really lucky to have had a mum who gave me not just the knowledge but the confidence to do things myself. I'll be listening out for her words of guidance and wisdom

Sunshine, wishing you a wonderful break in the beautiful south west, such a gorgeous part of the world. Wishing a good week to everyone. Lots of love to you and to our dear ones, gone but never forgotten.

Emma

xxx

Aw sending rubber rings, dinghies and virtual hugs your way to ride and survive those waves!

Hope everyone is doing ok xxx

Hi Emma, Spu, Lou, Sunshine, GBear, Sunny and everyone else who may be reading.

Emma, we all recognise your thoughts and the emotions you’ve been dealing with. I feel like I’m on a calm stretch of water at the moment but I know it won’t be long until a wave comes my way. As Spu said, sending a life jacket and some rubber rings your way. You will overcome this wave, like the others you have before and we’re all here always.

Tonight, I’ve finally just managed to run 10K! And I just wanted to let you know, I did it for my mum - your mums, Gbears friend and everyone else that’s lost someone to the cruel disease that is cancer! Our dear mums may have suffered but we’re also still fighting a battle (green eyed monster that is grief) and we’ll all get there - with a whole load of rubber rings, dinghies, life jackets etc.

Below, a snapshot from tonight’s run (I had to pause at this point) there is hope through those trees.

Sending much love to you all xxxxx