Stop this ride....I want to get off !!!

  • How Christmas really was for me.

    Tuesday 27th December 2016

    Ok,  I'm going to be brutally honest about Christmas this year because I would dearly like to be able to look back next year and realise how far things have come. It's so easy to say that Christmas was lovely to everyone who asks, and it truly was, but there were a lot of other things going on in my head while the 'lovely' was going on, things that I kept to myself, it was very difficult and…

  • The sound of snoring Part 2

    Friday 23 December.

    Two blogs in one day, because today has felt like two days, but I am home, with my wonderful husband and little dogs, I am so relieved to be at home. 

    It was a long morning, more intro antibiotics at 6am, blood tests and blood pressure, temperature. The blood pressure was slightly low but nothing to worry about the nurse said, but as soon as she said that my mind went into overdrive, I convinced…

  • The sound of snoring.

    Friday 23 December 

    It's Friday 4.40 am, yesterday was ok, just a day of intravenous antibiotics, blood tests, blood pressure and temperatures, all good so far, hoping to go home today.

    I really need some SLEEP!!! I am so fed up. The lady they moved who snored the worst got moved because she had an awful cough and they didn't want it spreading, but she was replaced by the loudest snorer ever.

    I think…

  • When will my luck change?

    Wednesday 21 December 

    Well I've said it before I should never make plans because someone 'up there' really doesn't like me lately. Yesterday it was full steam ahead for visiting our daughters for Christmas, and today I am in hospital. Plans spoiled yet again.

    I didn't feel brilliant when I went to bed last night, but as I'd just been pumped full of s**t and poison as the chemo nurse called it I…

  • Better late than never!

    Tuesday 20 th December.

    Well much better late than never, I got the second dose of chemotherapy this morning after Fridays postponement, the kind nurse phoned me yesterday to tell me that my neutrophils had gone up from very very low, where they had been at the 10 day stage and stayed until the second blood test, which actually turned out to be the fourth...to normal! I think she was surprised too. How did that…