Wednesday 21 December
Well I've said it before I should never make plans because someone 'up there' really doesn't like me lately. Yesterday it was full steam ahead for visiting our daughters for Christmas, and today I am in hospital. Plans spoiled yet again.
I didn't feel brilliant when I went to bed last night, but as I'd just been pumped full of s**t and poison as the chemo nurse called it I really wasn't expecting to feel on top of the world but I had a terrible night, couldn't sleep,but put that down to the steroids. I felt sick, hot and cold all night. Then when I did get up I just knew I had a temperature, I felt boiling hot and rotten, my temperature was 38 at 8am I took it again a little after and it was 37.6 so I phoned the chemo unit at 9am and they said to give it half an hour and see what happens, it stuck at 37.6 so I had to go to the A&E.
The chemo ward nurses had told them I was coming so when I arrived I was given the full MOT, bloods, heart, urine, chest X-ray you name it, I got it, they were very thorough, absolutely wonderful in fact.
So now I am sat here, feeling very fed up in a side room having had antibiotics on a drip and now waiting to be admitted for the night, hubby has gone home, coming back tomorrow morning. I'm hoping to go home tomorrow, but there was a muttering about being home for Christmas...I have a feeling it will be the 72 hour hospital stay with antibiotics if you get an infection that was mentioned at my pre chemo meeting. I feel like giving up, I'm so tearful and feel silly for being so.
I've just been moved onto the ward now and they mentioned maybe going home tomorrow, or 48 hours so it could be any time. Will up date later.
Update:
Well it's 3am no sleep so far, the earplugs do not drown out the sound of continuous snoring and coughing, the machines bleeping etc. Also I had an antibiotic drip at 11.30 pm, that took a while, then observations at 2am. But so far my temperature is ok now and my blood pressure has gone back to normal so things are looking up, but I know what happens when I start to get my hopes up about anything, so I don't want to jinx things again.
One funny thing happened, I forgot my tooth brush, it was the only thing not in my emergency bag, I intended to get another soft brush, but it slipped my mind, so the nice male nurse showed me where the spare ones were, and then said, 'would you like anything else, look here's a nice comb' that made me laugh, I did say that was one thing I don't need right now.
I wonder what tomorrow will bring.
