I can't believe it's only been five days! It feels like weeks. Nothing has happened but it feels like weeks. I'm so calm, Dean too. I am also being practical. I am making sure we have a weekly bus ticket each from tomorrow in case we need the hospital for any reason. I am also determined to use the ticket every afternoon. We can enjoy each other's company whilst exploring the city. It will be fun. I want to build more…
I slept very well. I am still surprised at how calm I am. I have told my eldest son and he will tell his brother. Last week I was so anxious yet now I am so laid back its ridiculous. Reading up on it is the key. The more i read the calmer I become. Even when thinking about what songs I want at my funeral, if things go badly, I am still relaxed. I thought it could start with The Day Thou Gavest, Lord, Has Ended and finish…
Thirty- six hours ago at on the morning of Thursday 29th of June 2017 it was confirmed, I have bladder cancer. What's amazing is how calm I feel. After a week of frantic anxiety and prayers I had the hospital appointment and, after a flexible cystoscopy, I was informed that I have a tumour on the wall of my bladder about 2.5cm in diameter.
About a week earlier I had noticed blood in my urine. There wasn't much, in…
