The peg didn't go well and I have left my husbands care to a nurse I didn't trust.
Today was the first time in 2 weeks that we were at the hospital for less than 2 hours - bonus!
Tomorrow will not be so lucky as the dreaded peg goes in and he's in over night. I loath the idea of leaving him there and going home. I feel shut out and out of control and it's not something i like!
Day 1 was not as i expected, did i think something would fall off, turn blue or run screaming down the corridor with its hair on fire? Yes I did actually. It was okay, he is okay, everything is okay.
Hummm..
My Husband has 3 main modes - Standard - kind, generous, charitable, loving, strong etc etc.
Angry - vengeful, spiteful, raging, savage and "the happy 5 year old". I was the happy 5 year old that I took…
My husband has deep tougne base cancer.
We were both sucesfull happy workaholics until an unwelcome visitor turned up one day. Some days we do well, it's light and happy and cancer is just a ghost in the background and I get some work done.
Otherdays the demons get him and he hooks me us as his emotional punch bag. I hate these days - he's not even in treatment yet, he starts monday but he's like a hurt animal…
