The pokemon

Waiting for results is so hard.  Until I know if the cancer has spread I can't quite get my head around how to deal with all this.  At the moment, I'm going for a really muddled mixture of trying to prepare myself for the worst while simultaneously hoping for the best. 

I have recently been diagnosed with synovial sarcoma.  Obviously from the fact that I'm blogging about it here, it's a cancer - although I think it sounds more like a pokemon.

This is what it looked like

It seems incredible that something so small and insignificant can be potentially life threatening, doesn't it? 

It started out just as a sore point in my hand, if I squeezed something or jolted my hand…