tgirl's blog

It was with great reluctance that I went back to work yesterday and I am finding it tough. It's not so much how physically draining I am finding it, more it is my desire to tell clients just to piss off, after all who gives a damn about their brochure/newsletter/book/magazine?! Having spent my whole working life as a dedicated career girl it is coming of something as a shock how little I actually care about it all in…

What a wonderful weekend we have both had. We kept ourselves busy on Saturday a couple of friends and my Dad and his partner came over to help us with odd jobs around the house which we are trying to tick off our lists before we start the chemo/surgery proper. My Dad did a spectacular job with building shelves either side of the chimney breast in the office/spare bedroom, while Rog put up towel rails and clocks and other…

A made it home from hospital late on Wednesday night, and I could tell from his face that being home was just totally brilliant. We watched Torchwood and Masterchef and then went to bed - it was wonderful to have him back! What is odd now is the utter normality of everything - we still wake up, feed the cats, do bits and bobs in the kitchen and nap on the sofa. It seems surreal when everything in your life has changed…

As possibly the most impatient person in the world I am finding myself become particularly talented in the waiting game. Yes, there is much teeth grinding and nail biting in the process, but I have realised that if I start worrying about the "what ifs" I might not want to get out of bed in the morning! And so we wait. There are high hopes A will get out of hospital today, at the moment we are waiting on his bladder…

We are still on an really weird ride after finding out last Thursday that my fiancé had invasive bladder cancer. We are still waiting for the biopsy results (which we hope will come back today) but it looks as if he will be recommended chemo followed by a cystectomy. Gulp! It's amazing how quickly you become able to assimilate facts and cope - last week news of "you have bladder cancer which has spread through the muscle…