thanks cathie and little my for your response I to have not suffered ill health so when this is thrown at you it is a massive shock to system.In the middle of the night i find myself lying there thinking all negative thoughts and start panicing,but i try to keep a brave face during the day for the family[i live with my partner Dave of 10 years ihave 2 boys 26 and 25 one is still living at home, it is hard for them to…