thanks cathie and little my for your response I to have not suffered ill health so when this is thrown at you it is a massive shock to system.In the middle of the night i find myself lying there thinking all negative thoughts and start panicing,but i try to keep a brave face during the day for the family[i live with my partner Dave of 10 years ihave 2 boys 26 and 25 one is still living at home, it is hard for them to go through this again as they lost their dad to skin cancer 15 years ago. Dave has a son and daughter and we have 3 gorgeous grandchildren between us] The surgeon was hoping to do the op via lapaoscopy but the ct has shown the tumour is bigger than first thought so i will probably have to have open surgery as well as they intend to removea good bit of the large intestine appendix and lymph nodes hopfully no chemo after either. Tomorrow i go for my pre op assessment then thursday it all happens i will be busy getting things done in house i know i won t be able to do for a while after op lie cleaning windows and curtains. Im not into computers so by the end of all this i might of learnt a new skill, this is the 2nd attempt to write this blog the 1st one didnt go where it should of never mind all practice!!!!!!!
