well people ( in general family, friends , medical professionals ) are now talking to me like i already have 1 foot in the grave , not a plesant time and doesn't fill me with confidence . everybody seems to have that low , depressed tone to their voice and are suddenly talking to me like i'm 3 . i have a little problem thinking at the momment , probably due to lack of sleep ..or just being thick !
anyway can someone help me with the maths ...when i saw the surgen in the week he reccomends that i have complete removal of bladder , bowel and vagina ...by doing this it will give me a 1 in 5 chance of being cancer free ..but that also gives me an 80% chance the cancer will come back ..or i could have chemo ..i've had chemo twice before , both times it hasn't worked ..but of coarse theres different types to try ..if i have chemo i will have 6 - 12 months at the most ..probably . people as mentioned above , are now back tracking and saying i should maybe go the chemo route ...i don't think the sums add up ....had a visit from a palitive nurse today ..does that already mean i'm circling the drain ( a penny phrase) ?
i feel quite well ... ..just had a phone call from the g.p saying how sorry she was , deep depressed tone etc ...and asking me if i thought surgery was really worth it if the odds are so small ..what do you guys think ...?
