Im in such a sad place at the moment. I cant stop crying as I write this. Why do we have to go through so much pain. I ask a friend on here what do I say and she said just write from the heart. My wonderful dad was diognoised on the 8 March with oesophagus cancer. Went through lots of tests and could only have 10 days of radiotherapy which nearly killed him. But dad has been so strong and never once complained. He has now been put in the hands of willen hospice and no more can be done. I see the pain going through his body and you just wonder what all those pain killers are masking. We have been told he has weeks left . Took dad to Oxford yesterday for his last appointment and he looked so frail. Lucky we got him a wheel chair.The sparkle that was in his eyes is no longer. We are all in such pain. I worry so much for mum when dad leaves us. He wants me to plan the funeral so there is not alot to do when it happens. I spoke to the undertaker and the crematorium to sort things out. This has been so hard to do.
Dad doesnt want us to forget him and be close to us when he dies. so we are going to put his ashes in a pendant for mum and myself to treasure for the rest of our lives. x
