Well it has been a bad start to the day. Was supposed to have my mri this morning but i just couldnt do it. I feel like such a failure. Everytime they tried to run the scan I just kept bursting into tears and was moving to much so the quality of the image was not good enough. I feel like such an idiot. Thought I was doing okay but today just lost it completely. They ended up sending me home as I was just too upset and…
Well am back at work today after having a couple of days off after being told I have cancer. Cant just sit around the house moping even if thats all I want to do. Someones got to pay the bills. Still running tests so dont even know what treatment will be let alone how much time I am going to have off so figured while I can better keep working. Its hard though to concentrate on what seems like such meaningless stuff now…
Had a fight with my husband this morning....
He thinks I am shutting him out. Not talking to him about what is going on. Dont get me wrong he is absolutely fantastic and wants to help me through this and would do absolutely anthing for me. So I dont know why I just dont want to talk to him about this.
I am telling myself that its because i dont want to upset him by saying how i really feel.that im trying to protect…
Well been told I have cervical cancer this week.
Head is all over the place...
Still waiting on more tests to confirm spread/size so that I know what treatment will be.
Think I have gone through every emotion under the sun all at the same time. I am simultaneously, happy, sad, andgy, relieved, jealous, scared........
And I know I should be staying positive, and i have a lot to be grateful for but really today I…
