hello all my lovely mac family its been a while since my last blog and i thougtht it was time to come and check in...last time i spoke to you i was about to start my clinical trails....i nwas then turned down for my clinical trials as i was not well enough to go throgh with it...which upset me dearly...as that was my last hope really...but im feeling quite well in myself and im trying to keep my self active even with…
well its nearly monday not long to go now till i will be taking part in my first lot of clinical trials ooohhhhh im not looking forward to this at all, having my chemo while im in there too....so gathering im not going to be coming out in a great state!!
On monday im having a line fitted into my chest they are putting me under for this and then start on these clinical trials eeeeekkkkkkk.
My mummys coming with me though…
Had a lovely day today even though i am very tiered now... been to a bbq with all my family and it was lovely...so much laughter and we dont all get together that oftern and it was lovely....feeling more possitive about things today... i said id dust myself down and get up again and i have,
spent the night with my mummy watching the x factor i love my time wi my mum...at times like these you realise who really matters…
Its been a cupple of days since my last blog when i found out my cancer was terminal and being offered a clinicaltrail to prolong and increase my quality of life...i still dont really know how i feel,ive taken care of most of the practical issues...i.e thinking about the future, talking to my daughters dad whom i am no longer with and now what? ive got nothing left to do for now....and i think i think about it more when…
