Hiya all, sorry about this, but i need to get out of me, whatever it is im feeling,-& i always do that by writing. I'm really writing this for myself....helps me to get it out-it's carthartic for me-i love writing, plus it helps to get it out; well does for me........
Im sure those of you who read it, are aware that about three fridays ago tomorrow->(6/11/'09)<, my son 'broke out' with his friends, & came home in such a state that it ended up with me calling the ambulance-which led to the paramedic phoning the police....etc- you all read it: son ended up in hosp, then was allowed home after a while-the police bought him back.
My son was hallucinating-he kept saying 'things', & thinking he was somwhere else, & that other people were there, he was also sweating, -so i had no option but to call paremedic.
Today, after literally walking through the front door to my home, the police were knocking on it. Seems that suddenly, three weeks later, the paramedic has injuries, & has made formal complaint?
Paramedic told me he was fine when he left mey home! He was....I was sober when ALL this happened-I know EXACTLY what happened-my son was not compliant with ambulance guy, cos he didnt know who he was, or even where he, (son himself was)! He was hammered, & hallucinating. Paramedic knocked my son to the floor, cos of sons vebal aggression, within less than a min of entering my home. He called the police, because, as he said to me & i understood perfectly, he needed to treat my son, but needed support from police. He also ASSURED me son wasnt going to get 'knicked', they (police) were just to help back him up, & help to get son into hospital.
Now, son's in hospital at moment, (2nd time since that 'incident' for infection & IV antibiotics) I havent told him about this at all with police. He is down enough, without this. He's stuck in a hosp sideward, alone & down in himself/worrying about what we'll hear on Monday.
We'll be finding out results from minibeam chemo, monday- 8 /11/ '09....That is big enough in itself-let alone, what he willl be facing, regaurds cure, & where we go next, cure wise), after that meeting...& this is just too much for him.
It's too much for me, & i havnt been pumped full of chemo for nearly 2yrs! I am not 21 & facing my mortality-& feeling 'tired & worn down' about everything!
The best thing that could happen to my son now is good news; not an interrogation down the cop shop-(he's MEANT to avoid potential 'germy places) -Cells/dirty; cop shops, are dirty ol holes- They're bang outa order! My Son hasnt got a criminal record-nothing, he's very proud about that; he's not a threat! I live here with him, im not threatened!
He had ambition before all this, now it's like he doesnt care, cos he is that down in his own self-he needs support, not more damn pressure!
Even IF there is a case to answer, surely they could let him EXPLAIN after all this, once he's cured, & he's feeling strong again; not all this now!
I dont know-I know my son was outa order for shouting a paramedic, but I did thank paramdic, & he said it was fine before he left with son in ambulance.....
Sometimes you feel like you cant take anymore, then more comes!
My other bugbear is the way plod bloke said "..if he's well enough to go out drinking and getting drunk with his friends, he's well enough to go to the station"!! (QUOTE)!
I did ring Cathy, oncology/macmillan nurse-she took 'officers' number, & hopefully put this off-or stopped it. They took him to hosp he's in now, so i may 'mooch' around paramedics tomorrow when i visit, see if i can see him, find out what's going on....
I had to write this, & cheers anyone who wants to read it!-It's my rant, my anger, my bloody frustration! Here we are again, i'm him his Mum,should be able to help-but i cant. I feel so useless. I cant do anything, to do something, to get him out of something i got him into, (in a roundabout way)!
When the plod were in my home today, they gave me a card, even when i said he's in hospital, they didnt listen to me, overspoke me reallyI said id would have to ring in a week-if son's out within that week, i have to ring, so they'll come, & take him down there...it's cold in them places too! Cant they see he's going through enough?- & I f I dont, they'll come and arrest him!
I said to them, ok, whatever paramedic said is wrong with him, I did-I said nick me, I did whatever paramedic said....they didnt want me tho...But if I just stick to that story....saves a lot of grief for my son.....
Anyway- rant over! I feel alot better for getting that out!
Hope whoever is reading this, is the best they can in themselves... :-)
Yep, i'd be the first to defend a paremedic/nurses/docors-all those who work to help others, against physical, (& verbal), attacks....But my son DID NOT hit the guy-the bloke was nearly half the size of my son; as said, son wasnt 'with it', was acting 100% out of character! If he'd hit him, matey would be injured bigstyle, my sons big-but he isnt a violent young man...
