i have had a week away with my hubby and son for sons birthday, wasnt going to go but nurses etc said i needed it, came back yesterday ad saw dad, he has lost more weight, and his breathing is worse, found out he has basically just been eating pot noodles while i was away even though i filled fridge freezer and cudboards, today im cooking a nice roast for him and mum..
since dad has been home i go up their house as soon as i have taken my son to school, my work have been fab, they said there is a job there when i am ready to go back.. am doing everything at mum and dads as mum is bi polar, am shattered, dr came tuesday, we have social services come in twice a day and yesterday st nicholas hospice nurse cam in, she was fab, one came today too, i was talking to her in the kitchen and…
the bed is coming today about 2:30, am pleased dads coming home to be with us but scared too as i know he is coming home to pass away and it wont be long now, his arms and legs have started wasting away, he is forgetting things and is closing himself off a bit now, dont really want to see us or talk on phone.. i rang him and he didnt recognise my voice, i tell him something and he asks about it 2 secs after whan i just…
saw the oncologist at 1pm today, dad has cancer in the lung, spine and liver, they say its a matter of days, it will be very quick and peaceful, trying to get him home now, just cant stop crying, have my uncle coming tomorrow that will be such a help, in the last 2 weeks feels like my world has been torn apart
still no results, my uncle and i went to hospital yesterday, spoke to dads nurse as was told we would find out friday if cancer has spread etc, she looked at dads records and we saw that there was results, she said she didnt understand them and would arrange for us to see doctor.. dad is acting really loud, i can see real sadness in his eyes though, my sister is here now and helping with mum, all i know is dad is having…
