Not been on for a while, dont even know what to say just now? Its been 2months and 2 days since my gorgeous sister passed away, and if anything i think i'm feeling worse as the days go on!!
Was at a psychic night on friday, and i was just so upset to think that this is the only possible way i could hope to communicate with my sister from now on!
When does the guilt subside? I feel guilty all the time about everything…
Got sent home from work on friday, it was a gorgeous day, and right about 11am Yvonne would have been buying the bbq and filling up the paddling pool for my cousins kids, but to me it's raining every day. Spent almost the whole day crying. Missing her so much, didnt realise that it was an acutal physical pain aswell as mental.
How do you deal with the anger? I'm so angry all the time, and i've got noone to blame…
Its three weeks since my beautiful sister passed away and i seem to be getting worse week by week. I want to burst out crying all the time. I'd only just started a job as a support nurse in the beatson oncology centre and had to go back this week. The patients are lovely and kept me going, but i am so gutted to see people going home, when i know my sister is never getting the same opportunity.
She had an infection…
Hello, well thats the stem cell transplant over, and to be honest its a bit of a strange feeling!! My part went exceptionally well, my sister needed 5,000,000 stem cells and after my not so painful GSCF injections (the injections were not painful, the bone aching and all that went along with it however was!! Although i felt better to be going through a little bit of pain on her behalf!) i was able to provide 18,000,000…
