Got sent home from work on friday, it was a gorgeous day, and right about 11am Yvonne would have been buying the bbq and filling up the paddling pool for my cousins kids, but to me it's raining every day. Spent almost the whole day crying. Missing her so much, didnt realise that it was an acutal physical pain aswell as mental.
How do you deal with the anger? I'm so angry all the time, and i've got noone to blame! Want to blame god, but want to get into heaven to see her again, so who do i direct my anger at?
My brother inlaw Jack also lost his grandpa this week, he was like a second dad, he worked with his grandpa for 11 years, and he was the lovliest soul you could ever meet!! What has Jack done to deserve this much pain? He's only 27, why shoud he have to deal with losing his wife and grandpa within the space of 4 weeks. If there is a big plan, i would really like to know what it is, because at the moment all i can see is good people being punished and life's bad, lazy people getting to live as they please.
Why??????
Much love, lynnxxxxxx
