so sad,,,,

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FormerMember

4 Feb 2010

I always feel like im moaning on here, but i think we just having a really bad time at the moment , another really bad night ,we slept on sofa together till about 11.30, then went to bed but hubby is waking up every hour which i knew so will try sleeping tabs tonight, but what i didnt know is whats going round in his head which i could have guessed, but is fear , he admitted it to our macmillan nurse today,while i was their, he also said he had no quality of life which i also knew but was so hard hearing it , i dont know how i kept it together,anyway all meds doubled again , this is happening almost twice weekly now, but it never seems to help for long, also may be oxygen needed but will see gp tommorow, its so hard seeing hubby so depressed , i am normally so positive but when macmillan nurse left i just went upstairs and cried and cried, i couldnt stop , ive now given myself a headache and feel awful , and hubby now peacefully sleeping but he could tell id been crying, he just gave me a funny look and smiled ,well that started me off again , so i left to pick kids up , so i now have to try and pull myself together for the next time , i just want him to be comfortable , thats not too much to ask , and to all you ladies on here that have been supporting me, thankyou , i couldnt get through this without you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

FormerMember over 15 years ago

Oh jenni my sweetheart.............you are doing all you can, no one can ask for more. I was expected to die and my partner couldn't even sit with me and all I needed was him to be there for me. Just keep doing what you are doing and make sure there is some one there for you. I wish I could make it better for you both, but I can't. Sending you my thoughts and love.....carolxxx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Jenni, you are in such a heartbreaking situation... It is so alwful when you feel there is nothing you can do to help, but I am sure that lovely man is so thankful that you are simply there for him... I wish I could say something more. Sending you much love, Manda xx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

I am sure you hubby knows that you will always be there for him. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time.

Love

Daffie
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi Jenni

You're not moaning hun, just telling it as it is. You're doing as much as you can and I'm sure your hubby knows that. It's only natural that he has his fears, but I'm sure they are easier to face knowing that you will be with him whatever happens. Sometimes it's enough just to be there. I hope they can at least make him comfortable and that you can get a little rest.

Sending you a hug and the strength to keep going.

XXX
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Dear Jenni

I just read your blog and wanted to say hi and that i am so sorry you are having to go through so much pain and sadness...and you are so young too (((hugs)))

I wish there was something I could do....

Just try and be gentle on yourself and cry when you need too, you will feel stronger and more able to deal with each day if you let some of the pain out...

sending you warm (((hugs)))

much love

scarlet xx
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