My dear mother passed away yesterday 19th August at the age of 42... Only 20 days after we got her diagnosis.. This all happened so fast..
I have no idea how i will ever survive.
I miss her so much already...
There is no words to tell how much she meant to me and how close she was to me. I feel like i didnt have time to tell her all i wanted, tho i told her a lot. But i guess its normal to feel that there would have still being so much to say..?
Eventho shes gone forever now, im trying to tell myself that this was better, bc she doesnt have pain anymore and she doesnt have to suffer no longer. But still.. this hurts so much and feels so unreal..
Anyway, im going to meet her one day again when its my time to go.
If everythnig happens for a reason, i cant really find a reason for this...
I feel so lost and lonely..
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i am so sorry , i know what its like as my mum passed away on saturday .so i'm a few days infront of you on this awful journey we are on.
do just what you feel like doing , ie scream ,cry , shout , be quiet etc there is no right or wrong way to be .whatever you feel like doing is right for you!
So sorry to hear about your Mum. I lost my Mum to cancer nearly 6 years ago and I still miss her a lot. We found out about Mum's diagnosis at Christmas and she passed away three months later. That seemed so fast, so 3 weeks must have been an even bigger shock.
Remember every special moment you had with her, and know she will always be in your heart and your memories. Nothing can change that.
You poor poor love, can't imagine your pain right now, the only consoling thought is that mum has no pain now. I, like Debbie, like to think she is flying around with the Angels somewhere and meeting up with other loved ones (I am not religious but feels that such lovely, good people don't can't just leave us - they must go somewhere wonderful). No words are going to heal you at the moment, but lots of love and thoughts and memories will help you through the next days, weeks and months. Sending you so very many e-hugs - Julie xxx
Thank you all for your kind words. This day has been hard and we have been organizing funerals with my dad. Funerals will be held on 29th August. I dont know how i will manage to go there. Im scared of it, but on the other hand im waiting for it.
But yes, i like to belive that my mom is there somewhere watching down on us. And that we will meet one day again when its my time to leave. And im glad that we arrived to hospital in time and were there with my dad holding her while she took her last breath. It felt like she was kinda waiting for us to come there before she left.
I was also at my mom's workplace today. They had a memorial there. They all talked so kind way about my mom. All i was able to do was to cry and listen.
