Firstly I'd like to thank anyone that takes the time to read this. Having friends asking me how are things going although helpful. Unless they have been in this type of situation I don't feel I can really tell them everything I'm feeling or going through mainly because I feel that I'm burdening them so....
After a couple of rough days worrying about how little she is eating because of the nausea and vomitting she seems to slowly day by day being able to manage to keep food down, which gives me hope about how she will cope through treatment, when that finally gets started!!!
I should by rights be feeling happy. I'd be lying if I say I didn't expect a miracle after the first good day... maybe I expect too much too soon. She is still so tired (understandable) and she is now taking more of the pain relief though that doesn't stop the pain really, then I start thinking what is the differnce to a couple of days ago when she didn't supposedly need this much pain medication. Is she trying to put on a brave face or is it getting worse daily??? I really want to ask her but at the same time I'm not sure I really want to hear the answer.
Ah well I suppose I should just wait and see as like I said before maybe I expect too much too soon.
Rant over thanks for listening
Hugs and best wishes to all
Helen xxx
So before I get myself into a state I guess I should leave this blog update here and wait and see what the coming days bring.
