People keep expecting me to go back to normal. This is never going to happen! The things I've been thru have changed me for good. I will not let myself return to normal because it will make all that I've been thru for nothing.
This is my time to grieve and im sick of listening to people talk about sh*t that really doesnt matter and im fed up with hearing peoples stupid problems that can be solved in an instant! I couldnt make my dad better, I couldnt stop him from hurting, i didnt have that option.
Its distgusting that people just think 'oh its been a couple of weeks she must be ok now'. NO im not ok even if i look ok and even if im smiling and acting ok IM NOT OK! I cant quite believe that its only been 2 weeks and yet im getting e-mails from work. Dont people have any compasion. No sorry for your loss or card or phone call just can you do this or do that.
grrr ok thats better needed to vent and i think my husband is getting fed up with it.
