At midnight tonight my diet will only consist of clear liquids and boiled sweets, with a laxative thrown in on the Wednesday too. This will be my diet until Thursday 26 May 2011 - on this date I'll be nil by mouth. Ready for my operation on that date. I'll be having my tumour removed and a loop ileostomy.
Finally it's here. I've waited and waited and now there's no going back. The nerves have kicked…
You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
You got tears, making tracks
I got tears, that are scared of the facts
Running, down corridors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here, in a plastic box
I've seen christmas lights, reflect in your eyes
You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
There's dry blood, on your wrist
Your dry blood on…
Wednesday 4 May 2011 I decided to go to work, for the first time in three months. I fancied a change of scene, I fancied some fresh air, conversation and a taste of my old life. What I got was a bit of a shock. My energy levels have vanished and I realise I'm living in a bubble which is specifically designed to get me better again.
I was intending to go to work and just help out with small tasks, nothing major, and…
So, I had my MRi and CT scan. I've had them all before, but this time I was scared. Scared because the results mean a bit more this time around. Last time it was a little more hectic.
I hadn't got an appointment booked to see anyone after the scans, so was a little nervous how I was going to find out the results. Eventually I phoned my Surgeon and booked in to see him Saturday 30 April 2011. Saturday 23 April…
I feel better at the moment. More positive than last time I was here. I've not wanted to cry and hit things for a few days. I'm still very nervous about my scans though.
I had a day yesterday which really made me feel human. It was lovely. Two friends came to visit me who live in London. We drove over to Newlands Corner, where we had some lunch in a cafe. I had a gorgeous sausage sandwich - very tasty. With…
