gaynor363's blog

Hello all. I haven't been on here for ages, just found it very hard and upsetting.

Some of you may remember I lost my darling mum to lung cancer in January 2009. 11 months ago and I am still devastated and miss her dearly. My dad ism't coping that well but has good days and bad days.

This Christmas, being the very first without mum has been a rough time to be honest and personally I cannot wait to see the back…

I am having a very bad day today - thinking of my mum who I lost 7 weeks ago - I am devastated! The reason I am writing is because I cannot get over the fact that she didn't have treatment and I now question whether she could still be alive today if she was offered it?? Last June 08 they found 2 small growths in her bladder which they removed. Last August they removed her whole left kidney due to finding a 5cm growth…

Hi everyone I just want to say to anyone who has lost their lovely mum ( like I have 7 weeks ago ) To try and remember all the good things today and keep your chin up....blimin hard I know! But I know my darling mum would not want me to be sad today. RIP my darling mum xxx I love you, I miss you xxx

As some of you know I lost my darling mum to lung cancer 9 days ago on 31/1/09. We have now made the funeral arrangements, which is on Friday 13th. I am not looking forward to this day but know it has to happen. I took dad to see mum at the chapel of rest today, which was very emotioal, but I do feel has helped a bit. I miss my mum so very much, I still cry every day. I know it's still early days but at the moment I…

Just to let you know that my lovely, lovely mum passed away at 10.45am today. She was cheerful almost until the end, but yesterday she bacame very agitated and the nurse came to the house and gave her a shot of diamorphine to help calm her etc. She awoke in an agitated state agin at 4.30am today and the nurse came and give her another shot of morphine. Sle slept like a baby until 10.45 when she woke up raised her arms…