I Am A Heartless Bitch

No you are not selfish and heartless, you have to remember everyone of us deals with things differently, your mum would probably find solace by going to the cemetry today, to you it could just make reality too much to bear. Couldn't your brother go with her? I'm sure deep down she understands. I don't know what the answer is, I wish I did, but don't be too hard on yourself. .Love Jackie xx

Errrrrr, excuse me???? I don't think so. How are you heartless? It is precisely because you have a heart that you can't face it. Tell your mum you can't face it cos of Gordy. If you can't tell her, write her a card. She will understand.

And you are getting a big big hug from me for being such a lovely caring person and don't you dare hate yourself ever. Nothing to hate. At all. OK?

Lots and lots of love to you and a big big squeeeeeezy hug

Little My xxx

Hi Jackie and LM

Thank you for your kind words.

I got over myself - had a bloody good cry, got myself showered and went to the cemetery with Mumsy and Gordy.  Glad I did in the end.  And the three of us made each other laugh with our own plans for funerals and such like.  There goes that dark humour again!

Gordy wants something on his headstone along the lines of 'not resting in peace - causing mayhem!'.

Mam thinks she's going to leave her body to science.

Me - can't make my mind up.  If I get cremated I want them to play 'Disco Inferno' as I'm wheeled off into the furnace.  If I get buried I want them to play 'Going Undergrownd' by The Jam.   And I've heard there's a new way of going by being chemically frozen and broken up into little bits so you fit into a nice small box and if I do that then it's gotta be The Dave Clark Five's 'Bits & Pieces'.

Good job me and Mumsy were wearing our Tena Lady!!!!!

Much love,

Chrissie xxxx

Hi Manders,

I agree with little my, Tell your Mum the truth that its too much for you to cope,what with Gordy. You have enough going on in your life. Im sure she will understand. Look after yourself.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Sarsfield.xx

Hi chrissie, So pleased it all worked out for you, your mum and gordy, theres always dark humour to fall back on, I like your ideas, never think of anything like that myself. Take care, things always have a way of working out. Love Jackie xxxxxxxx