Greaf

Oh Nicola, I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time.

I will be in your position when my dear dad loses his fight (he is terminal) and I don't know what to expect except that I'll be up and down like a yoyo for weeks if not months.

The journey you're on is not an easy one but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right and you're almost certainly stronger than you think you are.

Keep going hun.x

Bless you Nicola, you are strong and you are doing it! Just the fact that you talk about doing the washing suggests to me that you are carrying on even if it is just in a small way. I hate to think what I will be like when mum goes and don't know how I will find the the strength to get out of bed. So small steps and small victories are called for one day at a time, one task at a time! You can always PM me.

(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

Di X

Hi Nicola,

If there is anyone on the site with the strength and support and caring its you, yes it will be tough but

you have what it takes to see it through, and Pops will not be far away to help you the way that you helped him. May Pop R.I.P.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

Hi Nicola

I am so sorry that your pop has passed (((hugs))). You were incredibly strong for him when he needed it most and it is perfectly understandable that you now feel completely raw and drained emotionally. I dont think that there can be muchin this life that is harder than watching a loved one on their journey with cancer (except obviously going through that journey oneself). Your Pop perhaps needed to spare you the last few hours and I think he would have know then he asked you to go that his time was imminent, so in that respect please do not feel any guilt ( read your previous post).

All the special times you and your pop shared and all the love between you is forever in your heart and can be carried with you wherever you go xx. You will get through the funeral, it isnt easy but this is now your time, and all you can do is take one day at a time.

Your pop was very proud of you, that much was apparent from your posts, and you should be proud of yourself. You had a special bond with him, and that can never be broken even through death, so hold that thought close and allow yourself to be comforted.

Sending (((hugs))) your way, this is not an easy time (huge understatement I know), and I am thinking of you xxx

WIth love, sharonxx

Thanks everyone, im feeling alittle better today as i sat with pop in the funeral parlour and had a good chit chat. Strange as it may sound it made me feel so much better and closer to him.

Nicola xx