Well i dont really know what im feeling at the moment but strong isnt one of them. One minuite im ok the next im crying then shouting and ranting so im just up and down. Im ok when im busy organising everything. I decided to do some washing today and found some clean clothes of pops what i had washed last week from the hospital and that was it the floods come again. I just cant seem to get my head around things and find that fight what ive always had in me. The worst part is missing my pop and caring for him.
The funeral is on tuesday and were giving him the good send off he so deserves and making it as beautiful as i can.
I would like to THANK each and everyone of you that sent me the comments, they really touched my heart and reminded me once again that i have met some amazing people on here who have gave me the strength and courage to go on and i know that without you all i dont think i could have got through this so from the bottom of my heart a great BIG thankyou and for you all to know i will never forget you and although the fight for my pop has ended i will still fight for all of you who is battling cancer to get well soon and for all the carers i hope to give that little bit of support to carry on.
Nicola xxxx
