I haven't blogged for ages, because by the time I get on here and starting reading, a few hours go by and - well thats it. I'll do some back dated updates soon.
Its hard to believe that I have passed one anniversay - the anniversary of my diagnosis and am now approaching the first anniversary of my op. I don't know how I feel about that ... how odd.. part of me is relieved that the year is over, the treatment is behind me - well apart from the Tamoxifen!
I try not to think of it as a lost year, because there have been good things coming out of it, such as all the friends I have made on this site, a new view of life. But the other morning driving to work I had a momentary dip, this time last year I was saying goodbye to my boob, I was preparing for my sisters birthday and my op on 2 Oct - and I wanted to cry only for a moment, not a good idea when your driving - believe me I've done it. Don't know why I felt sad, I am hugely grateful to still be here and to have hopefully a good prognosis, a chance to still do things but occasionally I hate what has happened, I hate that this thing has changed my body in a way I don't like, I hate the Tamoxifen and how it makes me feel. Talk about a Sweaty Betty!!
I don't want to commemorate the day unless I can do it in a positive way, there is no point me wailing about it - never been someone to cry over spilt milk - well not much anyway.
So Friday 2 Oct is goodbye tumour day - you have been evicted and are not allowed to return, all trespassers will be annihilated. So now I am gonna plan some celebrations !!
Feel better now - lol :o)
Take care all
Carol xxxx
FormerMember
Carol,
Have the best celebration possible, you have just passed another mile stone. Its odd to look back on the year and think that it really did happen to you but with a lot of luck you are now back on the road to a normal life, but don't get too drunk - only jealous cos i can't hee hee
I know exactly what you mean about anniversaries - this day in 2007 I was in Spain celebrating my daughter's birthday... everything lovely and 'normal', then a couple of days later - diagnosis! I believe you said earlier your cancer was picked up during a routine mammogram? Mine was, and I certainly remember the utter shock of being told I had a life-threatening illness when not displaying ANY symptoms. Perhaps we can have a real ding-dong party when, like Christine, the five years are over and we can say good-bye to Tamoxifen FOR GOOD! Perhaps Debs can do the catering?
Hey Kate, thats a fanstastic idea. I think we should. I didn't get the routine mammogram, they hadn't quite got to me - as I was a young 50 - rofl :o)))) I found it but they sure moved fast to remove it.
Hi Carol, Gosh what a year it has been. Think of all those things you have been through and you have overcome them all. I think a real celebration is needed, cake, chocolate and champagne!!!
