I haven't blogged for ages, because by the time I get on here and starting reading, a few hours go by and - well thats it. I'll do some back dated updates soon.
Its hard to believe that I have passed one anniversay - the anniversary of my diagnosis and am now approaching the first anniversary of my op. I don't know how I feel about that ... how odd.. part of me is relieved that the year is over, the treatment is behind me - well apart from the Tamoxifen!
I try not to think of it as a lost year, because there have been good things coming out of it, such as all the friends I have made on this site, a new view of life. But the other morning driving to work I had a momentary dip, this time last year I was saying goodbye to my boob, I was preparing for my sisters birthday and my op on 2 Oct - and I wanted to cry only for a moment, not a good idea when your driving - believe me I've done it. Don't know why I felt sad, I am hugely grateful to still be here and to have hopefully a good prognosis, a chance to still do things but occasionally I hate what has happened, I hate that this thing has changed my body in a way I don't like, I hate the Tamoxifen and how it makes me feel. Talk about a Sweaty Betty!!
I don't want to commemorate the day unless I can do it in a positive way, there is no point me wailing about it - never been someone to cry over spilt milk - well not much anyway.
So Friday 2 Oct is goodbye tumour day - you have been evicted and are not allowed to return, all trespassers will be annihilated. So now I am gonna plan some celebrations !!
Feel better now - lol :o)
Take care all
Carol xxxx
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Hi Carol, I know what you mean about the anniversary thing. It's amazing how these dates stick in our head isn't it.
That's one year over, before you know it you'll be in my position, six years over. (well nearly, December 2 for me lol).
I have finished tamoxifen now and am finding I don't have the aches and pains I did.
It was lovely reading a blog from you again. I think we all now and again feel sad for what has happened even though we are glad and grateful that life continues. On your goodbye tumour day I will be celebrating by having my own boobies squashed as flat as a pancake in some machine in the car park of our local ASDA.
It will be a year from my big old seizure that led to my diagnosis at the end of Nov...not sure how I feel about that yet.....not sure I can actually believe its a year already.
I hope you manage to plan something good (and include cake LOL) for your anniversary. Lets hope we all celebrate a lot more together.
hahaha - Shez I did that last week - not in Asda's car park at the hospital.
Cheers Andrew - 6 weeks is that all, your making great progress.
Debs - oooh cake, chocolate cake, carrot cake, profiteroles stuffed with ice cream. I'm tempted to make some little cakes and put mini boobs on top - but not sure the boss would see the funny side - lol.
Christine - Oh no aches and pains, what does it feel like. I can't wait - lol
