but does it have to keep throwing so much Sh*t at me!! I've had enough over the past 4 years and I don't want anymore, in fact I want to load all the shit I've received in a giant catapalt and throw it back. I always visit this site and try to be positive and not be down, there are so many people worse off than me and actually since my diagnosis I haven't had many "dark moments" but boy am I in one now. Just when I think things are on the up, something knocks me down. The reason - my poor little dog died on Saturday, not a huge thing in the great scheme of things when people are losing loved ones, and coping with all the crap of cancere treatment etc ..but she was the one constant in my life who was such good company, who would snuggle up when I felt ill, who didn't care that I only had one boob - I was her mum. She gave me an added reason to get out and about, especially since I've been signed off. Just when I though we were coming to the end of this journey and can start planning the future, I lose her and it so so hard.
To top it all the sun is shining, we should we walking in the forest or playing in the garden, and sorry but I wish is was raining because it suits my mood.
OK I'll stop wallowing now and make a cuppa, and keep busy.
Take care all and sorry for wallowing.
Love Carol xx
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Oh Ii so understand how you feel. We had three dogs , a set of nesting tables in fact. I mean that seriously they fit one under each other, a micro border collie, a collie cross who was dog sized and a greyhound sized lurcher. The lurcher was a rescue dog and very definitely mine and I loved her to pieces. She was so ill when we got her and not really expected to survive but she was nearly 1 when we had to put her to sleep. She would always welcome me home, and would actually tell me when it was bed time and was always available for a cuddle, unlike the other two.That was 18 months ago and it still brings tears to the eye when I think of her. The day is etched into my memory. We lost the other two dogs within the next three months, we knew they would all go at about the same time as they had been together since beiong puppies. I didn't feel the loss of those two as much as I did Willow. I'm not going to type the usual platitudes you know what they are and at the minute they won't give you much comfort. But there will come a time when it will be easier and as the sun is shining get out and do those walks you did together and remember all the pleasure and enjoyment she gave you.
Hi Carol, I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved dog. I have 2 dogs and am so thankful for them especially when I'm feeling down too. Knowing that you've to care for them no matter what gives you a reason to motivate yourself sometimes. People sometimes don't understand what a comfort they are and how they are an important part of your family. Take care and know that she was well loved
sorry to hear of the loss of your dog,i no how you feel we lost both of our dogs in 2007 both to cancers,then i find i have ovarian cancer 2008,but we now have another dog called millie a lillte maltese so she cheers mu up,hope you are ok take care carol....
Hi Carol, I am so very sorry to hear about your lovely dog, Whiskey? She has such a lovely little face. I absoluely understand where you are coming from, I hope you have a small degree in comfort from the memories she has left you. I have two Golden Retrievers and would not be without, yet I only got my first one just over 2 years ago, I cannot imagine life without. How right you are that they are always there, unconditionally. My brother loved them, they sat by the organ during his funeral and did not make a single noise. Attendees were amazed to see them afterwards, dogs are not common place in churches, perhaps they should be. They are such an integral part of a family and one's life.
Take care Carol - chuck the sh*t back, virtually, shout, rant and rave it might help!
With love, Debbie x
PS I recall my sister telling me when she had been dealt a few duff blows in life she went into her local church, stood in front of the altar and screamed out, ' Where the **** are you? Talk to me ... !!' The vicar appeared, looking very bemused. He announced his presence to which she had to reply that actually it was God she was after. After she calmed down they did have a chuckle!
I must add my sister is a very sane, logical and normal person - but extreme circumstances ......
Oh I am sorry about your beloved dog. Over the years I have loved and lost five dogs and cried buckets over each and every one. I now have two three-year-old dogs who I pray will be with me for some time to come. The dogs were great with me during my treatment and seemed to know NOT to jump on me or get as excited as usual. They were calm and just came and rested their heads on my knee or gave me a gentle lick. I hope you soon have a new canine friend to love. In the meantime I recommend bottle smashing as therapy! Go to your local bottle bank and drop bottles into the container - the smashing sound is very satisfying!!! And yes, swearing is fun too!
