but does it have to keep throwing so much Sh*t at me!! I've had enough over the past 4 years and I don't want anymore, in fact I want to load all the shit I've received in a giant catapalt and throw it back. I always visit this site and try to be positive and not be down, there are so many people worse off than me and actually since my diagnosis I haven't had many "dark moments" but boy am I in one now. Just when I think things are on the up, something knocks me down. The reason - my poor little dog died on Saturday, not a huge thing in the great scheme of things when people are losing loved ones, and coping with all the crap of cancere treatment etc ..but she was the one constant in my life who was such good company, who would snuggle up when I felt ill, who didn't care that I only had one boob - I was her mum. She gave me an added reason to get out and about, especially since I've been signed off. Just when I though we were coming to the end of this journey and can start planning the future, I lose her and it so so hard.
To top it all the sun is shining, we should we walking in the forest or playing in the garden, and sorry but I wish is was raining because it suits my mood.
OK I'll stop wallowing now and make a cuppa, and keep busy.
Take care all and sorry for wallowing.
Love Carol xx
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Hi Carol
I'm so sorrry to hear of the loss of your beloved doggy. I have 2 border collies, one is 13 and the other a puppy of 11 months and they are so loyal and comforting, especially at times like this when we're going through crappy treatment etc. I'm sorry you're having to endure this now, along with your other problems but I hope you feel better soon. Thinking of you, take care of yourself.
Love Lorraine xxxx
p.s. As said before scream, shout, rant etc as much as you want, you have every right!!!
for all your lovely replies, they really help. Its syrprising the first thing some people have said including my sister is "are you goin to get another one!" - I know they mean in the future, but I want to scream that I haven't grieved for this one yet. I am out today so thats good.
Thanks for all the suggestions.
Kath - I will go for a walk in the forest and back to agility and remember but in a few weeks.
Kate - The bottle bank is a good idea, I have some to get rid of.
Deb-bie and Lorrainey - I'll combine it with screaming and shouting, although I've already done a bit of that.
I'm so sorry ~ and the fact that I'm talking about my puppy is only adding salt to your wounds. :(
Grieve for your friend. Cry, scream and let that emotion loose. You need to express it in any way possible, and then you'll start to remember all those wonderful moments you had with your wonderful companion . . .
Thank you. Talking about your puppy doesn't add salt to my wounds, I'm really pleased for you. I think its a priviledge to look after and have any pet, Charley will be a wonderful companion. Put some pictures on here as soon as you can so we can all see him.
