Why cant i speak

Hi Megan - we all feel for you - so much to deal with and still so young - please remember you ahve so many friends on here that feel you pain with you - the one thing we cannot do is take your pain away - wish we could.

Your daughter had such a short life - but she is no longer in pain - I am not religious sorry - but if anyone gets to heaven its has to be the children.

You are so young yourself - please live your life for her - think of what you hoped for her and do that - try dancing lessons - rejoice in Xmas, smell the flowers, enjoy the sun live for her

she will always live in your heart - enjoy the few happy moments you had with her.

Life will get less painful - but you will never forget - but enjoy rather than regret that please

love and hugs

John xx

Hi stars,

What you have gone through no Mum should. Unfortunatly it happens from time to time . You are completely lost and dont know what or who to turn too. Well Hun making yourself ill is not going to make you feel better. Could I

ask you one question.

Why do you feel guilty was it your fault that your beautiful little girl got this terrible disease. I think not. But she will be a lovely memory to have in the future. You might never see her or speak to her but she is right inside your heart,and by your side every single day. I dont think she would approve of her Mum making herself ill becase of her. No matter which way you look at it Hun. As you said the worst thing was watching her suffering at the end.

Well the she is no longer suffering but Asleep and at peace. It will not be easy it will take along time

but maybe just maybe the pain will start to ease.

I wish I could do something to ease your pain but that nobody can do but Time its self.

Please take care and look after yourself Big Hugs  Love.

Sarsfield.xxx

oh megan my lovely ,im sending you the biggest hug possible ,ray and i were talking about you yesterday (all nice ) and saying sometimes you speak /meet someone and you just want to hold them in your arms ,and thats how we feel about you ,we want to wrap you up and hold you let you cry then help pick you up ,you dont need me to tell you its not fair ,i can only imagine how much your heart is breaking ,mine broke losing ju but to lose a child and then your mum , must just be unbearable ,

but you making yourself ill is not the answer , but you will realise that in time ,

please huni remember im here u  for anything ,anytime and am always thinking of you, your more than welcome to pm, me on here of facebook ,even if you want to cry, shout ,talk anything lots of love and hugs jenni xxxxx

We are all here for you Megan, we all want to ease your pain. Don't make yourself ill love. Your baby had no choice she had to leave you, and your mum too. In their memory LIVE live your life for them. You DO have a choice please make the right one for their sakes and yours. Big gentle hugs to you my love. Julie X

just a thought i had whilst reading this, jesus loves the little children, the lambs of god, and all children go to heaven. I dont know what else to say i keep these thoughts to myself, i can only say that i will think of you and all little ones when i have my quiet 5 mins in the garden. oh, if i went to church the roof would fall in its been so long. but i will say a quiet prayer for you. please take care of yourself.