Im Sorry to you all xxx

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You all must be thinking by now Here she goes again! Last one i promise, the tears are flowing as i am writing this x

I would like to say a big thanks you to all in chat who over the past few months have helped me in any way especially you johnoconnor im really grateful that you took the time thats first day you got me talking - you gave me the kick i needed to open up.

I have tried so hard over the last few months to get myself sorted but losing my daughter has really gave me a bump. Still now 6 months on i dont understand why her - why a four year old who had her whole life ahead of her - its beyond me.

Chat has been a lovely place to be and im so glad i have found you all, and i hope in some way i have maybe helped some of you although very unlikely at the moment.

People keep asking how i am but i cant explain all i know is im not me im not megan and i know that doesnt make any sense but hey....which is why i feel like i dont belong here anymore and i am wasting everyones time.

I also want to say sorry to everyone who has had to listen to me moaning on and to say hopefully i wont be bothering you all again after tonight.

Once again thanks so much and Goodbye - will miss you all loads xxx

Megan

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Stars

    we cannot say we know exactly how you feel but we can understand that what has happened to you is so very sad and incredibly hard to come to terms with.  

    No one will think you are moaning or complaining, we understand you are grieving and hurting.  

    come back into chat please xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Megan,

    I am only able to echo what has already been said. You NEVER need to say sorry!

    Please don't feel you are wasting anyone's time or "bothering" anyone - we are all here to support one another.

    You have experienced something I have not, but I believe that losing your child must be the worst thing ever! That loss cannot be "made up for" or compensated in any way. Neither is it appropriate for anyone to tell you to "pull your self together", as that is just not possible.  (You did tell me recently that someone had siad that to you and I said then that it was a terrible thing to have said to you).

    Our community here has been made all the richer by your presence and your sharing of your experiences - the good and the bad - so, please don't go forever. I do know that there comes a time for each of us when we feel the need to take a break from Mac, but most of us return after a while. I hope that you will return too.

    In the meantime, take care and look after yourself Megan. Love, Rose x x x x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Megan - Please don't go! I only go onto Chat once in a while now, but I found that the people on Chat have been a life line that I know is there when I need it, and the people on there have actually saved me. I've never met a better group of people. It's a wonderful place to express your feelings without being judged or criticized. I can't imagine the hurt that you are feeling - but we're all here for you!!! Always!!!

    Please don't go!

    Love & Hugs, Mo    

    XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Oh Megan please don't go!  You're not moaning you are grieving.  I can't begin to imagine how you are feeling as I've not experienced what you have but we are all in chat for support and to give support to others when we feel we can.  You have found support there as I have and I wouldn't have coped at all over the past 8 months without the people in there.  Megan we all care deeply about each other in there and I, for one, don't want you, or anyone else, to feel they should leave.  Please stay!  Love Caroline XX

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Megan,

    I read with interest your post.  My husband died quite suddenly last November and though it was nothing compared to losing a young child I don't know where I would have been without chat.  Everyone listens and I know not one of us considers it as moaning. As Caroline says its grieving.  I rarely go into chat now but I never made a conscious decision not to go there.  Please re consider until you feel you need it no longer.  Who knows you might still feel you want to chat even when your grief abates and don't forget your experiences may well help others too as I am sure that this b***** cancer will affect others.

    Love and hugs Stacey xxxx