hi chaps
well as my status says good n bad news, went in today for my results and muggins that i am, i listened to the blather, love that word BLATHER, about how things were on the books for an operation. What books they been reading god only knows, but i bet they had washable, chewable and suitable for 2-5yr olds on.........sorry feeling bitter.
Any road up, in waltzes the doc lovely bloke, askes the general questions how are you, any problems ( yes i'm sitting here with poxy cancer but other than that fine). hows your eating, any probs. ( no eat anything you put in front of me, even do a bushtucker trial if i'm hungry).
Then the bomb shell, good news the tumor has shrunk significantly, the scan shows this as clear as day. (whoopee doo) but we can't offer an operation,( ok some bugger just popped my ballon, and they better have a good excuse) the scan also shows that some of the lymph nodes have NOT shrunk, and this leads us to a problem, if we operate and don't remove all the cancer cells the chances are it will come back in an advanced agressive state, it would take you nearly a year to recover from this surgery as it is very intrusive and we think you would be lucky to last 6 months.( ok wot i hear is odds on favourite not to see xmas 2012 bah humbug.) So we think ( he continued) another 4 cycles of chemo then restage again, you never know your responding well there is still a small chance of an op. after that. ( look out the window and wonder how to catch that flying pig)
So my friends it just proves i'm that lucky i could fall into a barrell of boobs and come out sucking my thumb........sorry rant over, just had my wonderfull wife there and she hoped that an operation with a cure was on the books ( same one ) so she was upset, i'm more annoyed at the thought of sitting around with the chemo yukkies again. so i decided to with hold my chemo till after the new year, let my bod heal and enjoy xmas with my family, (possibly not the best idea i've had cos the grand kids are doing my head in about stopping this weekend..love it really) the doc agreed with me just the chemo nurse to talk to on mon, as long as she agrees i'm hoping for a illness free xmas.
Then to round off a absolutly fantastic blooming day, newcastle on fri afternoon is pants, so we decided to go xmas shopping at the metro centre.....whos crazy now, didn't get home til half ten tonight, but retail therapy and costa coffee and an early xmas pressie off my beloved saved the day.
as always stay happy,positive and love those around you. joe xx
