Sometimes you don't feel like smiling,
When there's a hole in your heart,
When someone is missing
Baby's life from the start.
Not there to call,
No not all
For every smile,
Every step,
Every gurgle and shout,
She's not there,
She's missing them all.
Sometimes you don't feel like smiling,
When there's a hole in your heart,
When someone is missing
When you just want to shout,
No more cuddle,
Or kindly words…
I thought if I had something positive to focus on (my studies) it might make it easier to deal with my mum being so ill, I thought going round her house to study 3 times a week gave me an excuse to put the children with a childminder and just be there without her thinking I'm going out of my way or making her feel like I'm fussing, but I'm there if I'm needed and instead of sitting crying in the house day after day I…
My mum is the strongest, kindest most unique person I know, she is also my best friend, the only person who has stood there and told me "you can do this" no matter how bad things have gotten, even when I told her at 17 that I was pregnant and she just said oh well you'll be great at it and there me in tears thinking she's going to throw me out or something!
I was told June last year my mum has cancer…
