hi al. l i returned home this morning from mexico. had my birthday there too. it was fab!! great to have all the kids around me. as i did feel very alone inside. sad at times. but steve was with me in spirit. this is a journey i have to take without him. seems like it's gonna be a long one. but as the kids keep telling me. mum your strong and well loved we will help each others along the way
the sesssion has been cancelled today due to the therapist having shingles. we won't be able to go now till april. going back to work this thursday two days for a month. life has to go on as people keep telling me. been 13wks since steve died. his headstone being laid next week. at last the grave will look like his resting place rather than some make shift plot. we are going to mexico 19/3 kids looking forward to it.…
have counselling now first visit just gone, had back massage very nice. i hope it all it helps me to come to terms with steve gone. and get me trough the dark days ahead, i still feel i'm in a bubble. have bad/good days. we will be having family sessions to i need for me and the kids to open up to each other, as nothing has been said these last few weeks about steve dying. i know we all cope diffrently. i also need to…
As i lie awake at night
Whilst others are asleep
I take a trip down memory lane
With a tear upon my cheek
I think of all the heartache
I try so hard to hide
I think of all the times
I've broken down and cried
I cry because i love you
I cry because i care
I cry because i'll wake
And you won't be there
My love you meant the world to me
And words just cannot say
Just how much i miss you now
That you have gone away
I felt i had known you all my life
And i've loved you from the start
Now you've goneand taken with
My poor broken old heart
There's so much more i had to say
But now it's far too late
I;ll just have to bide my time
Till wemeet at heaven's gate
