I am not even the one suffering with the cancer its my mum and she is being so strong. Not only today has she been told she is dying but she has been told she cant even take her last holiday, thats no big deal we will find somewhere in the uk but how do you deal with knowing you are dying. I just want to protect my mum and fight of this evil for her. I do not want her to die. My mum is the most amazing lady you will ever meet, she never gets angry with anyone and everyone loves her. She is beautiful, funny and strong. I am the one sitting here crying and she is the one telling jokes. I am so proud of my mother. But being selfish I dont want her to die, I love her to much and value her wisdom. Why is this such a cruel world, and the good are taken early. My father died 17 years ago and I try and tell myself that dad wants her back and we have had our time with mum and now its her time to go back to dad, and she has done her time here and made sure my sister and I are both fine. But it hurts it really hurts I am going to miss her so much. She has Alzheimers and she knows that she repeats herself all the time and she laughs at herself what an amazing lady. Mum you will never read this but I want you to know how much I love you,and thank you for all your words of wisdom, the hugs the millions and millions of kisses and I am so proud to call you my mother.
