hi
I am feeling really low today and can't seem to get back to being positive no matter what. I feel angry cheated frightened and very scared. i am frighted of dyiing and the process and bemoan my loss of feeling immortal. well I know its unrealistic but before diagnosis I did not think about dying at all. I gave up smoking 16 years ago so also feel cheated about that. In fact I am so angry and upset I can'get all the words out. HOW does one cope with the knowledge one is going to die sooner than one thought, and how do statistics fit into all of this . You can see I am totally confused. HELP Please
FormerMember
have a look on here , see how many have been given just a short time and still here ,
my mum never had that privlage of sorting out her afare's .i said good night and next day good bye
So sorry you're feeling really down. I think your reaction is very normal, and most of us feel angry and cheated, and also frightened. Don't take any notice of statistics, they're just numbers. Try and remain as positive as you can, although I know its not always easy, take each day as it comes and try not to look ahead too much. xx
sorry your having to go through this, your not alone, and this is a good site to let it all out, i cant advise you on how to deal with it, we all deal with it differently.
me? personally, i just refuse to waste the time i have left feeling sorry for myself,(i was told i had 3 to four months to live 14 months ago).
i refuse to make the lives of all my loved ones harder than this cancer already does, we cant help having cancer, we cant help feeling sorry for ourselves, at times, but we can make the most of what we have, and i`m not talking about bungee jumping or skydiving etc, im talking about doing the things we want to do, and getting as much normality as possible, and yes do something you always wanted to do but never had the nerve, enjoy your family and friends, its not really about staying positive, more like pushing that a little further away, i wrote myself a bucket list, (things to do before i kick the bucket)and dates to reach, my first is my 30th anniversary on 13th of july, this time last year i thought it was not going to happen but i`m still here and its only 7 weeks away, so that`ll be no 1 ticked off, and i feel great about reaching it.
i know in the early days after dx its sooooooooooo hard to concentrate on anything but the cancer, but i hope you get past it and have some normality. good luck with everything liz xxx
Just as Toni has said. That was my motto and geuss what .... I am back at work.
We all have those moments as that horrible c word is something that you never expect will happen to you. I know how you feel sweetie but try to be positive..
