just want the world to slow down

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FormerMember

29 Oct 2009

First time I've written one of these, just feel that there is so much i need to get off my chest but have no one to say it too!. This time last year i was looking forward to Christmas oblivious to the fact my world would fall apart the day before Christmas when my dad was told he had advanced kidney cancer and the chances - 1 in 10. SInce then its been a roller coaster of no treatment available, then were lucky enough to get on to sutent, that worked at first but 2 months ago they said it had stopped working and would he like to go on a new drug trial. Been on it for the last month and yet again i am trying to be strong whilst watching him dealing with yet another set of side effects. I just wish I could get a hold of this! I don't have any siblings so feel there is no one to share my fear/anger/frustration etc with and am fed up with not knowing where my head is at!

Guess today is a bad day as don't usually moan like this! sorry folks

FormerMember over 15 years ago

hello argo

i know even when we have siblings and other family members we can still feel alone with our thoughts and worries

so sorry for you that you heard of your dads diagnosis on xmas eve but as you say you never expected him to be still here so maybe this xmas you should have extra special time for your dad your kids ....but especially for you

you will get a lot of support on here ....iknow i have!

((((hugs))))

xNx

ps never appologise for havin a good moan - we all do it ...............
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Being strong for him, what more can you possibly do?

Will you let me hold your hand a minute.?

So here's a virtual holding hand, or a hug if you prefer.

Sharing on this blog site is just the most helpful thing to do, bad days and good days alike. Because it really is all ups and downs isn't it?

Bad days are dreadful but after them, there seems to come a lot of good, especially after a good ol' blog.

All the best for you Dad today - love
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Being strong for him, what more can you possibly do?

Will you let me hold your hand a minute.?

So here's a virtual holding hand, or a hug if you prefer.

Sharing on this blog site is just the most helpful thing to do, bad days and good days alike. Because it really is all ups and downs isn't it?

Bad days are dreadful but after them, there seems to come a lot of good, especially after a good ol' blog.

All the best for you Dad today - love
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

You've picked a good place to have a "moan", not only does it seem to be tolerated here, but positively encouraged. I think we have to embrace the good days and bad days, realise they are going to happen, and not beat ourselves up when we can't stay upbeat all the time.

Best wishes to you and your dad.
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi, Having read your blog, i had to get in touch as our stories are son similar, i have two young children and my mum has just been diagnosed with kidney cancer which has spread to the bones? how much-waiting for a bone scan. I know how you are feeling i feel the same, empty, lonely, loss of the person i always talk to when i have worries this time i cant-so nice to talk to someone unfortunatly in the same boat x
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