Today I'm on a downer

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Well I've been awake since 3am nothing new there and have had all sorts going through my mind. First I was thinking about Danielle, hope she is back home soon and gets a treatment plan on Monday. Then I started to think about my family and how it has been affected by cancer. Here is a summary:

Aunty - Leukaemia - died

Grandfather - Lung - died

Uncle - Bone, primary unknown - died 6 weeks after diagnosis

Cousin - Bowel - died

Brother - Pancreatic - died 4 months after diagnosis

Brother-in-law - Liver, primary unknown - died 18 months after diagnosis

Mother-in-law -Bowel - sucessful surgery, 5 years cancer free March 2010

Me - Bowel - successful surgery, now undergoing chemo

Dear God, please let a cure be found soon, before it takes more people that I love. Feeling totally fed up of this cruel disease. Shedding a few tears this morning.

Sorry folks, just had to get that off my chest.

Angela x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Angela glad you are feeling better. The same thing happened to me that happened to you. Had my tumour been spotted July 08 my bowel wouldn't have burst, I wouldn't have a bag and chemo. It took a year for it to burst and I had only just been sent home from the bowel clinic on the thursday before this happened on the sunday. Having been told I had a bad case of IBS and it would right itself. I had had no tests at all in 8 weeks due to the fact I had had a camera the year before. Actually 14 months before and polyps had been removed albeit benign. 2 lymphs were involved and it was all localisd so my prognosis is good. I have been very very lucky if my bowel hadn't burst well it doesn't bare thinking about. So yes early diagnosis for everyone would be a big step. Keep feeling better Love and hugs Julie XX

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Angela

    Wished I'd known you were up and about during the night we could have shared a moan and a cuppa.  Peter couldn't sleep either!

    Do you remember coding all those patients for all those years?  I didn't give a thought to how they were feeling, or coping.  I'm talking 18 years in that job.  Things have come on since then, we didn't have the scanners or the MRI's we have now.  I left that job 7 years ago and my colleagues tell me that although there seem to be more patients, they are seen quicker and have so much more treatments to trial.  The reason there are more patients is because people ARE going to their GPs more now.  

    Funnily enough, Peter received his test pack for Bowel Cancer yesterday, a year to the day he went to the Doctor.  I have to say that this Age 60 test is a bit strange as most of the people on here are younger than that?

    Anyway, I am glad you are being a good girl today for Andrew then we can all find out about the Nutella.  I was given a jar of this for Christmas by one of the girls I worked with....years ago, it also had a pastry brush attached.  I keep it in the bathroom and have scooped half of it out and stained the brush...so any visitors going in there must have a bit of a titter!!

    You deserved the moan...go for it gal!  Tomorrow is another day............!!!!

    Cherryl

    xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Cherryl

    Oh yes, I remember my coding days, but in recent years I have been responsible for the Patient Appointment Centre in our local hospital,so I often have to speak to distressed patients and carers. I always do my best to help them, not always easy when dealing with reduced or cancelled clinics. I think when you have lost a loved one to cancer it does make you more aware of how people on the end of the phone are feeling. I certainly hope that I come over as caring.

    My hubby is still waiting for his test pack. He'll be 61 next month. I have always worried about him because he is definitely a person who would not see the GP straight away. He'd wait and see if things improved, something that has always worried me. Never thought it would be me that would be the one diagnosed with cancer, not that I wanted him to be either. Like you, I wonder whether 60 is young enough as most of the people on here seem to be younger, too many of them.

    Anyway, Andrew has let us all down. Still no news on the Nutella. Can only presume it's something that will make us blush. I have left a message on Mike on the Bike's wall (as Andrew had suggested asking him) but not had a reply. Come on one of you, let us in on the secret!!!!

    Angela xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Oh Angela, you impatient one! I said that you had to be a good girl ALL day and there's plenty of hours to go yet! ;-)

    I will tell all once my spies have reported back to me about your "goodness" rating.

    I'm watching you.......

    love n hugs to you all

    Andrew xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Dear Andrew

    I promise I will be VERY good for the rest of today. I'm sure your spies will confirm my goodness!!

    Waiting with baited breath

    Angela x