Today I'm on a downer

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Well I've been awake since 3am nothing new there and have had all sorts going through my mind. First I was thinking about Danielle, hope she is back home soon and gets a treatment plan on Monday. Then I started to think about my family and how it has been affected by cancer. Here is a summary:

Aunty - Leukaemia - died

Grandfather - Lung - died

Uncle - Bone, primary unknown - died 6 weeks after diagnosis

Cousin - Bowel - died

Brother - Pancreatic - died 4 months after diagnosis

Brother-in-law - Liver, primary unknown - died 18 months after diagnosis

Mother-in-law -Bowel - sucessful surgery, 5 years cancer free March 2010

Me - Bowel - successful surgery, now undergoing chemo

Dear God, please let a cure be found soon, before it takes more people that I love. Feeling totally fed up of this cruel disease. Shedding a few tears this morning.

Sorry folks, just had to get that off my chest.

Angela x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    But remember Angela, no naughty thoughts.... ;-)

    A xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    At the moment I'm not sure if I should be looking for Nutella in the jams,marmalades and spreads, medicines or adult entertainment section at Tescos!

    Still being very very good

    Angela x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Don't even think about strangling Andrew for teasing you Angela..........

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Oh I wouldn't strangle him. I'm going to his 100th birthday party and I've promised to be good for the rest of the day, so I can't put that in jeopardy!

    Angela x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Angie, sorry you have been feeling down. What a difference coming on

    here can do to pick you up again.Its

    really funny [not in a funny way] but

    i woke up this morning [Friday] feeling

    very sad, crying off and on thru the day.

    My poor hubby tried so hard to cheer

    me up, he went into town and came back

    with the most beautiful bunch of flowers,

    but i still felt sad, my dear friend was

    coming to visit me from London for the

    weekend and i wanted to put her off,

    but she had already brought her train

    ticket. Hubby went to fetch her from

    the station, i was getting a meal ready

    when there was a ring on  my door,

    and there stood my future daughter-

    in law with her mum and dad, with a

    big bunch of flowers, helium balloons

    and presents in a lovely bag, thy knew

    my friend was coming so thy were only

    here for 5 mins. And i still felt sad. Then

    i felt so ashamed of myself, everyone

    had been so lovely and i had felt very

    ungrateful , and why was i behaving like

    this, because i am 65 TODAY[sat]And

    i should think myself very lucky to have

    got to that age when so many people

    on this site never got to see that age,

    and there's many more who are fighting

    to see there 30s and 40s and 50s. So

    to all of you lovely people ,that have

    become my friends i want to say a very

    BIG THANK YOU. and if it it was possible

    i would love to give you all a big Hug,

    for making me realise what a very very

    lucky lady i am.

    With All My Love Lucylee.

    XXXXXXXX.