So angry with this cancer lark!!!!

Amanda,

I've just sent you a private message cos it was too long to type up here!  

The people on this site have the broadest shoulders, so on the days you need to lean (whether that be a cry, moan, shout, rant.......we are here.

You are doing well, don't lose sight of the end goal.

Love & Strength

Debs xx

Here's where you scream and shout - we can take it. Don't let it abort your plans - just modify it a bit. It will all come right in the end. It's just that the end might not be what you envisaged at the start and last of all but most important

keep smiling

Love

DREW

x

hey amanda,

just wanted to add my best wishes for your chemo, i know everyone says it but the thought of it is worse than actually doing it, ive had my second fec chemo and im on my second week now everyday you feel a little better, once you know what you are dealing with its not as scary. you will learn to cope with what happens to your body everyone is different. i have found this site is so helpful people on here will listen good day or bad day, i know what you mean about work i work in retail and ive been off for 4 months now wont be back until next year and as stressful as it is this time of year i miss it because it has been my build up to christmas for the last ten years! im a bit lost at home on my own! but i have some great friends and family so im gonna have a chilled christmas, who knows what next year brings.

lots of love

sam

xxx

Thank you every one for your kind comments and support. I went to bed and hour earlier than ususal last night but still couldn't drop off to sleep very easy, but have woken up feeling more positive about things. Last night was the lowest I have felt all so far. I can't believe how I felt reading about my friends post. Just hope I have more good days than those like last night. Tomorrow is the start of the road to recovery but 6 months seem a long way off, then there is the radio (don't know yet how much of that).

My friends at work have been great and they text or come round and keep me informed of any gossip lol. I work for a child care training agency as an assessor. I am based from home but I have to travel 100+ miles per week to day nurseries to assess students during their work to observe if they are competent to reach the qualification of either NVQ level 2 or 3 in Childrens Care, Learning and Education. Basically for any of you who have under 5's in a nursery I am one of the people who say whether the person looking after your child is competent to do so. I also have monthly targets to achieve as in how many students I put through to qualify, it can be quite stressful especially when head office are emailing me for information and they want it asap. I also have to attach documents to computer programmes on a daily basis. This is what I have asked if I can do at home but have yet to have any reponse from LM. As you can appreciate going into different nurseries with the illnessess that under 5's get especially this time of year is not a good idea. So that part of my job I am unable to do, Don't think that I would be able to answer any questions from the little ones.

I'm going christmas shopping this afternoon to cheer my self up. Tomorrow morning I'm going with my sisiter for her wedding dress fitting which I am looking forward to. Then 1:15 tomorrow afternoon the first cycle of chemo.

Love and Hugs to you all Amanda xx

Sorry you feel so down. I know its easier said than done try and stay positive and also come on here to cry and shout - we can take .

Love and hugs

Stacey