Dreading the new year

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FormerMember

28 Dec 2009

I am really dreading the new year, I just really wish we could stay in 2009 it feels like I am losing more of Bill I know this sounds weird but I just can't get rid of this feeling ! The days are just merging with one another and I find no comfort in knowing the years to come are to be spent without him , how can anybody say time is a great healer when time is the thing that Bill did not get.We were not ready for him to go(is anybody) we thought it was beaten,we thought we were the lucky ones (how arrogant were we) but it can happen and rejoice if you are the lucky ones I wish you a long and happy life, live it, keep facing the sun,remember that you have a right to smile and be happy living your life ,you are a symbol to others that it can be beaten and for them not to despair but fight it with every fibre of their being.

2010 !!!! The first year that I will be without the love of my life how am I going to manage without him ,life is empty without him and so cold and hard, I have lost my soft place to fall on,and the voice of reason in my life without him what is the point of anything.

Feeling really sad and I miss him so so much.

FormerMember over 15 years ago

Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love.
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

hi pansy feeling the same as you hate this festive season,glad when its gone . I lost my partner this year and just take one day at time i can not see in to the future but each day i take im another day closer to him and thats what keeps me going. Im sure many off us feel the same take care xxx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Pansy, I feel for you I really do, I know I will be in your position at the end of 2010 and I just don't want to kick start this new year off. Stick around on here though there are so many lovely people to talk to, rant, moan, laugh and cry with.

Take care my thoughts are with you xx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

i to lost my partner last year and every morning for a split second i well i dont no how to put iit i dont forgert but for a second i ok then BANG real life hits, its been 6 months but it dont feel it so i tottaly get what ur saying infact u could say what i and any on here think, there are many many fantastic people on here who truely no how u feel and i for one is here for u message me if u need to and if u want swop emails
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi pansy

I lost my wonderful husband in sept 09, Christmas and new year were awful, but I had a lovely supportive to help me and my 12yr old son to get through it. I daren't looking into the future because I just don't want to be there without my husband. If I allow myself to think too much about anything and I get upset I start having panic attack. Monday 15th February would havebeen my 13th wedding anniversary, so I'm finding this weekend difficult as for tha last couple of years we'd gone away for a few days.

Sending you and all the other widows on here big hugs XXXXXXX
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