I am really dreading the new year, I just really wish we could stay in 2009 it feels like I am losing more of Bill I know this sounds weird but I just can't get rid of this feeling ! The days are just merging with one another and I find no comfort in knowing the years to come are to be spent without him , how can anybody say time is a great healer when time is the thing that Bill did not get.We were not ready for him to go(is anybody) we thought it was beaten,we thought we were the lucky ones (how arrogant were we) but it can happen and rejoice if you are the lucky ones I wish you a long and happy life, live it, keep facing the sun,remember that you have a right to smile and be happy living your life ,you are a symbol to others that it can be beaten and for them not to despair but fight it with every fibre of their being.
2010 !!!! The first year that I will be without the love of my life how am I going to manage without him ,life is empty without him and so cold and hard, I have lost my soft place to fall on,and the voice of reason in my life without him what is the point of anything.
Feeling really sad and I miss him so so much.
