3rd dance with germ cell cancer

Well escaped marsden without being kept in overnight, finally had my scan which will determine whether they consider it worth while to continue with treatment, would feel confident but every time i saw a consultant leading up to my first round of high dose chemo, they kept listing the reasons why they would stop it, And then during the treatment they continued with that theme and they wonder why im full of optimism,…

That was a nice break from the marsden was hoping it last a bit longer,but once again they drag me back for scans and blood test in prep for the all important consultation next week. Always find it a bit bizarre that basically a group of people i never met are sometime next week sit around a table and discuss my fate, Tis very much like the old witch trials will it be a cross or dagger i receive? But more importantly…

Finally out of hospital after 17 long days, 17 days on holiday fly by , but this stretch seemed like eternity Although marsden in its usual manor did its best to delay the release as long as possible First it was the wait for the out patients medicine to appear, Then i had to wait for the dr to see my ugly mug first, Then to top it all not 5. Mins after the dr i formed me i could go , then a nurse appeared stating…

As i go though the daily wait of finding out whether my bloods are recovering,and the fun wait at the end of the month decision by a group of people, half of which i never met or seen who will decide whether i get to have a second go at HDC or be termed as incurable, My mind ponders many things, this time it's the terms 'battle' and 'fight' when used in conjunction with cancer treatment, i for one firmly fall into the…

Well isn't that typical had a blood transfusion yesterday which resulted for the first time in a week that i actually have some energy and not just flopping around on the bed like a wet fish, my temperature was down so no infection,i finished the 16 hours of fluid so off the dreaded iv machine,the sun was sort of shining, Great i though just wait for the drs round Can i go outside today. Nope your neutropenic…