Hi all,
Im completely new to this forum, and other than fb comments, I have never joined a forum in my life.
So I have recently been diagnosed with Endometrial CA, which was totally unexpected. No bleeding, just horrific pain. So after the kebab torture of a hysteroscopy - they really need to put on all the information pages online that 2 paracetamol and a couple of ibuprofen would not be enough!!! Must have been written by a man, folks who have had the snip get better analgesia than us women! Anyway I digress,
I am so lucky as it has been found exceptionally early and it is stage 1 grade 2 - likely 1a but could be 1b. - I fell asleep in the mri lol, so at the moment I only need a hysterectomy.
But my issues are that I believe that i am totally to blame for this, I have been fat since been 16, and have PCOS, and never had kids, so I tick all the boxes other than HRT. As it is only stage 1, I feel I am not entitled to join these groups, get alternative therapies, free prescriptions etc as there are many people who do deserve these as they are a higher stage than me and need a lot more therapy.
I suppose I have always felt that I dont deserve care, and therefore have put things off that had I got them sorted years ago I would not be in this mess. Oh im also a very experienced nurse who would much rather be caring for others and bending over backwards to help them and able to ignore me.
Is there anyone else who has felt this way, or am I just being pathetic? My friend told me off today for feeling like this but I dont seem to be able to help it however much she tried to tell me otherwise.
My family are also mega supportive, but I get the vibes from them that since its only stage 1 I should just get on with it and shut up as its not bad.
Sorry for the moan everyone. I hope everyone is ok.
