I did hijack a post a couple of weeks ago and recorded a number of issues that I refer to as "episodes" that have raised their head in the past month or so.
My profile outlines my diagnosis and treatment, after 20 RT sessions in September I continued on hormone treatment, 1000 mg Abiraterone a day and the accompanying steroid. Oncologist put me onto 3 monthly appointments and all was good.
The first episode was the week leading up to my first 3 monthly appointment. Huge anxiety about my blood test results with a fear that I may be taken off the medication!!!!
The second has been more gradual, a realisation that I am cold and distant toward my wife and she does not deserve that, thus I tried to be more considerate or caring, however, if feels so false. That eventual realisation caused me immense upset.
So today I walked over the threshold of the Magie's Centre and looked for help... I think.... I do not know what I wanted, but I need something. I went with my wife as she has been on every inch of this journey.
I was there for perhaps 90 minutes and spoke to the most patient woman (would I be wrong in saying young?) I cried a great deal, I was anxious, at times I could not get my words out, I said things that I had only thought previously, but I wanted to know if I was going mad or suffering from depression.
I was assured that I had not said anything that had not been said my many before me, I felt a little better at the end, I am not apparently mad and I am speaking to a PC specialist next week.
I thought I was managing this so well and then just dipped, big style. It isn't an immediate fix and some of it hurt, but I do recommend it.
