To all of you that have reached out to offer me support, I offer a great big "Thank You".
I'm really struggling, but overnight I came to the realisation that whatever I'm feeling, there are many more who are succeeding and making a success of what we call Prostate cancer - good luck and a Happy Christmas to you all. I hope you can all beat this horrible disease.
The past two nights have changed me - 10 x hot flushes the night before last and another seven last night. I don't care or even want to fight them any more as I'd only be doing it for me - so why should I care. Having recently discovered that my youngest son isn't biologically 'mine' and that his mother (my ex) threw him out from the family home at age 14 - and not even giving him the lifeline of my phone number...
My ex died several years ago, and believe me, she isn't mourned by me (or her youngest son). This entire family mess was of her own making - she lied, cheated and, quite honestly, was a despicable excuse for a human being. She leaves me, a PCa sufferer, her eldest son (probably mine) who died from pancreatic cancer 12 years ago, and the youngest son who is trying to make sense of what/why she did what she did.
I won't even look at my own, current, relationship - that's her decision!
Happy Christmas everyone!
Andy
